Thursday, October 07, 2004

Sleep

"Elephants sleep only 2 hours a day."

This according to the lid from my diet Snapple iced tea this morning. Well color me jealous, I wish I could survive on 2 hours of sleep. As it is, that zombie feeling is starting to creep in and I don't see it improving anytime soon, even after my last deadline there will still be admission decisions to worry about, then financing and moving.

I've been working later into the evenings on my applications, and I'll plow through the sleepy feelings only to be ready to wrap up and hit the sack feeling completely wired. I'm having a hard time shutting my brain off when I go to bed. Makes it hard to fall asleep when I'm thinking about all the things I need to do, questions that still need to be asked and answered, etc. Once I do fall asleep, it's restless sleep. I've tried to do the watch a boring show or read a book thing, but I have this MBA ADD and my thoughts always drift back to my applications or all of the what if scenarios.... What if I don't get in anywhere? What if I get in to more than one program, how am I going to decide and how will I finance this little project? What if my recommenders let me down? What if I bomb my interviews? What if things progress with my boyfriend but he doesn't want to move with me? WHAT IF A THOUSAND RINKY DINKS COME ROLLING DOWN THE HILL???! (one of my father's favorite sayings when I start playing the "what if" game, a funny reminder to KNOCK IT OFF because it's useless)

Business Week rankings come out in just an hour and 15 minutes. I'll be tuned into the chat. Do I really care about the rankings? Are they going to change my application strategy at this stage? Definitely not, but all the hype surrounding the rankings, the snub by Harvard & Wharton, the endless debates on the forums....this thing is like a train wreck and I can't help but watch. I'll post my reaction later tonight.

I have a friend who is a department manager at Nordstorm so I'm going to pay her a visit tonight after work and buy a suit for my interviews. I haven't worn a suit since I interviewed with my current employer in the spring of 2000! Back then, I couldn't afford anything nice so the one I had is a bit beat up, dated, and doesn't fit me that great. It's time to be a big girl and buy something nice that will last at least the next 3 years and hopefully longer. Credit card is going to get some exercise tonight, ugh.

2 comments:

Dirty_Martini said...

I hear ya on the MBA ADD thing. It's on my mind ALL THE TIME!! It's horrible. I'm really looking forward to submitting my next 2 apps next week. I have noticed that since I have submitted one app, I've been a little more at ease, as there is nothing to do but sit and wait. best of luck. :)

aregon23 said...

Feel the same! But the pressures of making the cut don't bother me so much right now (I am sure it will later), but for now I am just too busy with work, essays and applications, the need to run after my recommender's etc. to have the time to worry.

Well the end is in sight for the first round applicants. Hang in there! :)